what the fuck? last night something clicked in me. I was listening to my Ultimate Lenny CD and i was talking to Crisis!, and he said sumthing that switched my brain into rational mode. he said something along the lines of "you know what to do, just wait it out, and itll be ok". I stared at my reflection in the computer screen for a few moments. He also told me that when he has to wait to see his girlfriend, its the most awesome feeling when he does finally see her. I wondered why I was torturing myself through this. Instead of thinking about all the horrible things that could happen, an almost painful anticipation swept over